Over Whelming Support

Thank you all for your wonderful messages of support.
I am humbled by the caring of all of you.
Being a major player in the support of all you Nia teachers although from my heart I never really expected that I would be in a reverse position. Well here I am and I am blessed. Your emails keep coming along with visists to this blog and my, myspace page www.myspace.com/stuartmusicart there have been close to 50 listens of my song in 24 hours~!~

So today the packing begins. What to take? I will be taking a guitar and gear to record, my camera gear, and my business tools.
But clothes were to begin. I will need to create a packing list to be sure I do not leave out any essentials.
I also need to accomplish some around the house projects before I leave I don't want Debbie to have to think about the house at all she has enough to think about. And I need to spend about eight hours preparing my recording project, and then there are friends to visit before I go.

I spent a wonderful evening with my good friend Donald last night.
We sat in his backyard around a fire with a great meal and focused intent of celebrating the new moon with letting go and manifesting a path into the future.

Donald is an artist of many forms one of his art forms is his body casting. Donald cast my Left Hand for me. This is significant to me in that I feel that in celebration and in support of the fantastic and positive changes we are experiencing in the world we should all begin to greet people by offering our left hand as opposed to our right hand.

Did you know that the shaking with the right hand is a tradition that dates back many thousands of years. The idea was that
one would extend his weapon hand to show that he came in peace and would not bear arms.

I think it is time that we let go of this ancient tradition of proving that "I will not kill you" and instead extend our left hand the hand that connects to our feminine side and to the heart center. I want to tell the world "I Love You" how about you.

And now my intentions are forever cast in plaster~!~ Thank you Donald.


Jeff

The CountDown

I am leaving in 4 days WOW how time flies.
I still have a tremendous amount to prepare for such a long trip.
I am excited and yet I have many other feelings.
I feel sad, afraid, nervous, all these things.
this trip is not a dream vacation some would think so and under different circumstance
I would be jumping out of my skin with an opportunity such as this, a 4 month trip traveling the world. However this trip is not about vacation it is a healing journey.
I was practically ordered to go.
I am missing my home and Debbie my friends and family my business and my studio.
And I have not even left yet.
How will Debbie manage without me there is so much to do at work.
What if I do not heal what if I get worse. What if I change unrecognizable to myself will my life welcome me back. So many changes in such little time.
This is a poem I wrote a week ago I was not going to post this however I feel this is a reflection of my feelings today.

I am back.
Question is where did I go.
Did I go to a place that you did not recognize?
Was I lost in a place that you could not sympathize?
Question is did you know I was gone?
If so how long, was I gone?
Was it a week, a month, a year.... maybe longer?
Was it a separation a renunciation of something that never was
How did we find ourselves here?
So many questions with so much time
Lives of relationship and lives beyond time
I know and I trust that
Regardless of mine yours is the center of my demise.
Demise of the ego demise of time demise of freedom
Commitment overrides.
Looking to a sunset or a butterfly
You know how I love butterflies
Simple and complex beautiful, powerful a reflection of gods eyes.
If a dawn awaits it waits for me
It waits for me to come back.
From where I never was
I never could
I never am
In all that I see I see you and me
I am back
I hope you like me.

Nia Teachers light and love

I have just returned from a black belt graduation dinner.
I love graduation dinners this is my time to connect with the trainees

In that I have been doing this for 10 + years I have attended so many of these events;.
I am always excited to connect with the teachers in this way. I get to hear where they are from and their dreams and
their passion. By the time you/ they have reached black belt I have been able to watch as the dreams and visions as they have developed and come true over the years.

At times this brings me to tears. there is nothing more rewarding than to be in a supportive position no matter how small to
light seekers and dreamers of a better way and a better life acually make it happen. John Lennon wrote in a song where he says life is what happens to you while you are making otherr plans. this is not the case with black belt graduations it is all about celebrating the joy of reaching for excellence.

If it is a white belt or black the same energy is there and I am blessed to witness,

thank you all for the opportunity to serve.

Love Jeff

Happy New Year

The new dawn, as the Mayans believed the Day following the “Day Out Of Time”
Is the beginning of the New Year, Happy New Year~!~

My day out of time was as intense for me as I can imagine.

It is interesting to me how this whole idea, of being the best one can be, can at times put you at risk in so many ways. I question myself wondering if I am strong enough am I mature enough am I in over my head. I have always felt that I was as tough as tough can be. Not in a physical way but in a personal way. This has given me the opportunity to go deeper into experience surrendering to natural time space and development. I have been able to do this without hesitation as I have always had the confidence that I would survive
Any consequence of my commitment to a life of being willing and able to risk all.

I can remember a conversation with myself as a young man. I had just experienced my first romantic heartbreak. My pain so grate for a moment I was on the line of conditioning my heart and mind to never allow myself to get so caught up in relationship that I could not pull out or be thrown out and set myself up for a repeat of the boyhood lamentations for an unrequited love.

I instead decided that I would never want to not be able, to give my all, to everything I do in my life.
Spirituality, relationship, family, ME, work, and the myriad of dynamics that present themselves through out my life. This has served me well and regardless of the fact that I have this time gone a bit too far. Far enough that I need to spend devoted time to rejuvenate, I will never give up giving life my all. I will however seek a path and an understanding of self that will help me to do so without the loss of self.

Day Out Of Time

On the 13 Moon calendar, this day is no day of the month, and no day of the week. It is inbetween the closing of the previous year (July 24th) and the dawning of the new year (July 26th).
http://www.13moon.com/day%20out%20of%20time%20-%20wpmlink.htm

A time to reflect to celebrate to connect.
looking at now I see all that I could ever imagine.
Timelessness not empty full of all that is
nothing lost nothing to be gained
Simple refined
In surrender to nature to light and dark
Grateful heartful
embracing in all I trust
thus is the power of
A Day Out of Time.

Blue Ocean

My sister Jan just sent me a little note, "Because he is no competitor, no one in all the world can compete with him"
Short but in no way simple. However it brings to mind a book I read titled "Blue Ocean Strategy".
http://www.blueoceanstrategy.com/
The idea of the blue ocean is opposed to a Red Ocean the shark infested feeding ground of competition.
Giving this some thought I see the wisdom and the relationship to my life.
Interesting I have never thought of myself in competion with others but looking at this now I see how I am in competion with
myself. I am one to always look to my ideal self and then setting myself up to rise to a level that is just out of reach.
does this set me up for little failures and even big ones that dig at me on a deep psychic level. Setting goals is a good thing as long as I can do so without feeling less than. I once read that the most powerful thing anyone can do is make an agreement with oneself and the most disempowering thing one can do is to make an agreement with oneself and break it.
For me living for personal mastery has always been of the highest purpose in life.
This said good idea not to beat myself up along the way.
What I need is a little friendly competion, whats the point if we are not haveing fun.
Think of the joy of movement.
If it hurts shift until you find pleasure.

A new day a new dawn.
I am working in my studio recording some tracks.
Just finished a track titled " I will win her". In the next few days I will have a "My Space" I can then direct any one interested to " My Space" to listen to my tunes and view Pics.

In 10 days I am off to Venice Italy. I will spend 5 weeks there. I will take a side trip to Trieste (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trieste) to visit Nia Teacher Anna. Then I will travel to Sarajevo to see my old friend Branko. Braonko and I will travel to Brac . (http://www.kroatien-online.com/en/tourism/islands/brac.htm ) and spend a long weekend basking in the sun and eating what I hear is some of the finest seafood in the world! I will tell you more about these people along with details of my trip maybe even a photo or two along the way.
10 days goes fast. I have much packing and planing to do. I will be taking with me recording gear a guitar and cameras...... basically all my toys. I am looking forward to have so much time to create.

Change The Beginning

There is a time and place for everything. This is demonstrated in almost every aspect of our being. In psychology there is reference to the stages of healing http://www.psychologyhelp.com/chng41.htm the premise is that in order to fully heal an individual must follow a path step by step in-order to effectively realize change or as in this case, healing. Whether or not you believe in evolution we all can agree that an infant must creep before they can crawl. A seemly simple concept, and as with many, I so often am blind to the process as it unfolds. Wrapped in my own relationship to ¬¬the experience I am so busy watching and moving through each step that I am unable to see that there are forces of nature that are in play here and no matter how much I may desire change I can only do my part and have faith that I am on the right path. As an example looking to the “Stages of Healing” when one is deep into the second step “Helpless” they are most likely very challenged with the idea that everything will be fine in time.
I have witnessed this, phenomena, in countless variety in my life and most recently very profoundly in the development of my business. As a third owner I share ownership with two dynamic smart and highly committed people I am fortunate to have them as partners.
That said the change that we have experienced over the past ten years of working together has been challenging. Being in process we were blinded in the nature of things and therefore imposed undue stress on the business and ourselves. Even to the point of almost loosing all we had built and al that we were working for.
I believe that we have come out to the forest and now we can look back and see that it was never not going to be ok! A little faith and a little humor could have saved us all a whole lotta heartbreak. But remember we were powerless the forces of nature dictated that we all have our own process as a piece of the over all process of change, a recipe for chaos. My partners and I are fortunate we were able to recognize that the time to kick ourselves out of the forest of self and align just in time to finalize the growth we have been working for was ripe. We took the necessary measures and invested ourselves and our money, made some hard decisions and acted and achieved. A new dawn is upon us.